- um... changing career.. -

anyway the war between monkey and dinosaur is over... even how much shah and me fight.. we still love one another... all those harsh words are in the mist of fight.. now we are ok....

anyway.. i'm thinking to change career for short term... as i think i wanna fly and travel... and ya the salary!!! so ya... haha.. guess what i wanna work next k...

but for now.. i'm stick to the ground as Logistic Assistant at Schenker :D

LoVe MiZ nuRy

= shouLd i oR shoulD't i =

so today will be my suckiest day ever :(
as i'm trying to control my emotion and tears..

righT noW.. i'm hearTbrokEn... upset.. veRY saD.. anGRY.. pisT.. feEling like to punCH SHAHRIL!!!

seriosly after what i have bought him... give him... organised things for him... does he appreciate it at all?

like i help his family when they moved.. when they celebrating hari raya... i went to buy stuff for them... give shahril and family allowance money... like i mean i'm the typical pity people... since my salary is high.. i just help him...

and noW he just make me cry and heartbroken??!

so what should i do? i'm scared to let go... really love him...

i just am confused and in tears in office now... what should i do??

i'm in the stage to kill myself.. stress aND depress..

all thanx to SHAHRIL...

i misH him so much yet he hurt me like this... help help help....

i need to get myself occupied...............

seriously i can't cry anymore cuz i'm hurt to to to much :'(

i just have to stop crying before i turn to blindness... i need my rescue team now...

" dear god... i'm not trying to be a bitch... but please put shahril name on your karma list the first in line.... as i'm heartbroken and sad sad now... i've cried the whole evening yesterday since 6 till 7.30pm... i have not eaten... i just have no mood to live anymore.... please make me strong and get me a cuter monkey that is not an asshole"

++ hurting badLy ++

i'm at work.. and i'm hurting crying so much..

why does i always get hurt by LOVE?

# soBBing woRRied siCK #

right now.. i'm watching this sinectron "suci".. yuP! i'm sobbing and crying like crazy... cause i think my life is like hers.. i mean the love life is similar like her... it's very great show...

anyway, part of my tears is that i'm still upset.. and ya i'm worried sick of my monkey...

where are you dear?

i'm worried sick.. gotta go find my guy now... see ya.....

_thE paiN won'T go awAy_

evEn how much i try to hiDe my sadness or hurtful heart...

DeEp insiDe.. i'M stiLL in saDnesS and pain...

eveRy seconDs moVe by, but i just can'T remove the pain away..

yEs it'S stiLL hurts...

To my frenZ who text to ask how was i doing?

thanX for being caring, but i'm trying to forget the pain... but i just need time...

cauSe the bruise in my heart still still there to be heal by me...

Love nuRy.......